Whats my name [vent]

Recently no name has felt right for me, I have been questioning my gender again a bit recently, and it's only recently I've felt that no name really seems right to me. Maybe it's cause I'm just used to not being addressed much, and even less being addressed with my birth name. Idk how to describe this stuff well, I just don't know what name I really wanna go by. I've thought of the male version of my birth name, my sona's name, a gender neutral nickname I thought of years ago, but everything feels like it's not really me.

This has been a random rant again-