Just a lil vent

It is difficult going on social media seeing many go on amazing summer vacations. I long so much to just do a day trip to the beach..but feel so guilty as my ill sister , who always came with me, cannot go. I feel terrible to go without her.
I am jobless and having PTSD really does not aid that issue. It sucks seeing also most go out and work and have money while I scrimp whenever possible. Then on top of it all everyone around me has a bf or husband and love. That stings the most..watching so many date or find love and you feel unworthy of it from multiple issues. Like you don't even have a right to it. I feel i hang by a thread everyday. I do keep a sliver of hope that I can find the right therapy soon to truly help me find a semblance of life or joy.

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daydeeo · 61-69, M

Have you ever heard of the Desiderata?

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.