srsly what is wrong with me

And if there talking about you behind your back , leave it so , there probably leaving someone else off .
Get strong my friend .
Pain will make you strong .
Go through the pain process of loneliness at the start ( all sorts of pain) and you'll never feel lonely again .
I know friends are a major aspects in people's lives ( but before this happened) . Did you really trust them .( That's the brain washing) when deep down we don't.
Your 1st realisation of this can be scary especially if you thought you trust people but going through the process as what I say ( pain , pain and more pain) you will blossom.
When you were relying on people for your happiness you will have your own roots of happiness.
That's goes very deep .
I'll tell you why .
After going through so much pain you'll get a better understanding and you'll have a deeper meaning in the soul what peace is even when your demented mentally .
I hope you get something from this my friend

I don't think there's anything wrong with u (knowing ur probably an overthinker I'm inclined to state that this is the internet and I have no issues being truthful 😭🤣) tbh u can't really trust ANYONE but if you're gonna go about ur daily life constantly waiting for someone to stab you in the back the only one suffering is you. People are going to talk and there's nothing anybody can do about that . My advice is just to carry yourself to the best of your ability so that you know whatever happens it's not because of you. There's nothing wrong with daydreaming I'm a Pisces so that's literally my whole thing just remember that real is real , your daydreams are just that daydreams unless YOU change that. I've been feeling very alone like you,being surrounded by people but close to none 😕 it's a very humbling feeling but you're not alone. 🌸✨

In the simplest form although it seems like possible depression maybe get checked out to make sure it'll be ok, wishing luck!!