i don’t wanna be Mexican anymore

I js dont like being mexican i hate it. I’m very white washed like I’m no Sabo and I’m light skinned with thinner lips. I js look white and act like It. All my friends r very Mexican and they all joke about it I always joke with them and try to act like it doesn’t hurt but it does hurt me. I don’t feel like i belong with them I just I don’t feel like I’m Mexican.