I dont wanna simply exist

Please don't allow others to determine any sense of worth. You are valueable, in fact priceless, a unique human being of infinite worth, with infinite possibilities.

Having been part of a loving family I cannot claim to really understand the situation you find yourself in. Easy to say "be strong" and "believe in yourself". But that is all I can say.

You are so young. Everything is changing all the time. The future can be so different from the past.

All the best.

Hey beautiful person out there , i feel you to the core , the only thing that will lead you out of this , is forgiving , at the end they will go to bed resting easily and u will linger in this , u will survive all of this magicaly , keep a good connection to god and what ever you name it , im very sure you will get out of this safe and sound , my mom said pretty bad and deeply wounding things to me and pretty ugly stuff too , but i also remebered her good times , i also knew she was mently sick for saying that believe me no one who is sane would ever tell u that trust me , so hang in there buddy , its all a head process u can do it , im positive ,