I don’t know how to vent anymore.

It’s got to be tough. When I was 9 to 13 years old I had really bad anxiety and depression because of the murder of my mom . I was so saddened that I would only stare at the floor in my classroom. My therapist. Thought that it would be a good idea for me to have a penpal to write my thoughts to and my feelings I made a lot of friends on what was then called experience project, which has evolved into similar worlds. Most of my friends have left this site and I don’t really have anyone to talk to. I’m not saying that I will ever get over how my mother died but I am dealing with it much better now.
It’s easy to say, because I am a boy who have similar feelings in situations that you’re going through, but I know that you’re a girl and girls deal with things differently. I will say that when I was between 13 and 15 I really got to the point where I could care less what other people thought, and I started standing up for myself. People stopped teasing me as I go in to adulthood. I am finding that most of the stuff I stressed over was trivial. I hope you find a way to work things out. Just remember be yourself, except who you are as you are and don’t worry about what other people think. God made you who you are be happy in that and don’t worry about what other people think because at the end of the day, it really doesn’t matter you are who you are, good luck Brandon

“Whatever you think that you will be. if you think yourself weak, weak you will be; if you think yourself strong, strong you will be” - Swami Vivekananda

Best Wishes :)

I think you do you know how to vent.

Thank you for being so open and sharing your post.

I’m sorry you’re having a hard time and will happily be an ear or shoulder- just DM if you need a friend.

To be honest, you seem to have a good handle on the complexity of your emotions and see how actions or lack thereof have consequences.

The fact that you’ve identified your insecurities and understand why you need to be so withdrawn and alone is quite intuitive and self aware.

You’re going to work on improving your mental health and slowly, patiently piece yourself back together again .

Hey, feel free to vent on here. It's alright. I don't even know you, and you venting to me is just fine. Vent whenever you need, it's okay. Everyone feels sad at some point, everyone needs to vent at some points, and it's really just nothing more or less than normal. It's okay to vent, and feel free to. I get it's hard, but, try to feel and acknowledge that it's bad or somethig bad. It's okay and normal.