I don’t know how to vent anymore.

I don’t know how to vent anymore honestly. I feel so alone and I never talk about my feelings with anyone else because I’m afraid of them judging me or it’ll change the way they look at me. I have been suffering family issues for a while and it sucks to show any signs of fear of yelling in front of my friends because then they see the real me. So whenever someone asks me how I’m doing I say “I’m fine.” When I’m not. I even suffer anxiety and ADHD on top of all of that. I’m just so tired.