"The people who were supposed to protect me are the ones hurting me!"

If you're realizing this as a teen, you're extremely fortunate. It took me a very long time to understand this as my mother has narcissistic personality disorder. She'd play my brother and I against each other all the time. He became the golden child, he does everything ridiculously perfect and seemingly for appearances (juggling, dancing and playing guitar like a pro, getting scholarships etc). I was just the loser that everyone in family blamed everything on. All I felt was shame for simply existing. No one asked why I was always depressed or cared to ask me about my day. They'd hate the things in me that they hated in themselves but could never deal with. They are too fragile inside for that.

I was molested as a small kid by an adult pedo and told my parents, they didn't do anything at all. I was left to feel that anything was okay to do to me. To be emotionally, sexually and even physically abused (my teen boyfriend used to get violent with me and my parents were okay with it).

Please watch Dr. Ramani on youtube if you relate to anything I've written. She woke me up to a very shocking reality.

so sorry