I hate my parents

There is so many thing my parents do that i cant type it all out in this small document but for a short story, my dad pushed me roughly against the wall and gave me a bump on the back of my head for days, my mom told me to accept his apology but when i said i didn’t want to bc he literally hurt me she started yelling at me how he is my father. I accept his apology but i knew that it will just repeat it self. Now for my mom. She is very narcissistic and manipulative, since i was 5 she made me call my dad and made me ask him where he was just to get info out of him, i didn’t understand what was going on but i was happy to talk to him since i barely ever saw him. At 9 i realized what was going on and thats when i started becoming “rude” and “disrespectful.” The people who were supposed to protect me are the ones hurting me! Plus my mom remind me every day how fat i am so that just piles on.

This is my first post and this is just the one out of many things my parents do to me. Im glad i found this website, i really need someone who can relate to me, not weird creepy adults, teens just like me.

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Angelwarfare

"The people who were supposed to protect me are the ones hurting me!"

If you're realizing this as a teen, you're extremely fortunate. It took me a very long time to understand this as my mother has narcissistic personality disorder. She'd play my brother and I against each other all the time. He became the golden child, he does everything ridiculously perfect and seemingly for appearances (juggling, dancing and playing guitar like a pro, getting scholarships etc). I was just the loser that everyone in family blamed everything on. All I felt was shame for simply existing. No one asked why I was always depressed or cared to ask me about my day. They'd hate the things in me that they hated in themselves but could never deal with. They are too fragile inside for that.

I was molested as a small kid by an adult pedo and told my parents, they didn't do anything at all. I was left to feel that anything was okay to do to me. To be emotionally, sexually and even physically abused (my teen boyfriend used to get violent with me and my parents were okay with it).

Please watch Dr. Ramani on youtube if you relate to anything I've written. She woke me up to a very shocking reality.

IWTKMBIASOD · 16-17, M

@Angelwarfare i am so srry that u got sexually and psychically abused. But now u have me wondering, when did u realize what ur mom was doing? Also i think i am also getting touched in the wrong way but idk what to call it. My dad for some reason always smacks my ass if im in front of him. He has been doing since forever and i always tell him i dont like it and i feel uncomfortable but he still does it. Also my other male cousin touched one of my private areas in front of my younger cousin but i dont want to tell anyone abt it. Its been a year since that and i have been so confused.

My cousin always tell me i have some feminine features and they sometimes pinned me down and tried opening my legs (this time there are two of them) but i was tough enough to push them off and close my legs.

I dont want to add a title to this if i dont know what its called yet but i haven't told the right person yet and u seem “right” if u understand

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Angelwarfare

@IWTKMBIASOD So your cousin pinned you down and tried to rape you? How old were you both? You both need therapy and you NEED to tell someone. Your father patting your backside is NOT okay, even more so that you expressed you're uncomfortable with it.

Angelwarfare

@IWTKMBIASOD

I understand but I'm not a therapist and these are things that you need to talk to a therapist about. You can start by calling a child hotline or suicide hotline. They can refer you to someone capable of helping.

IWTKMBIASOD · 16-17, M

@Angelwarfare ok ! Overall thank you for listening to me! and my rambling so😅😅😅😅 sorry again for rambling

Angelwarfare

@IWTKMBIASOD You're welcome and you aren't rambling at all! I'm extremely concerned about you (and taking you at your word that you are who you present yourself to be). Please know that good people are out there and can help you. Even if you don't like the first person you talk to, keep trying to find help!

IWTKMBIASOD · 16-17, M

@Angelwarfare alright! Thank you everything again🤗