I seriously am about to give up

I'm so scared of death, but I can't take this anymore. I can only vent here and it's painful but people atleast listen, I barely have one or two friends in real life and I almost always stay closed in my room crying about how ill never be seen as a boy, how much my mother is dissapointed in me and wishes I've never changed, how my father doesn't even care if I'm feeling bad, school is draining me and I csnt keep going like this, it hurts.

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Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

I can attest at how fucking hard people can make your life when your not their definition of what they wish you were or think you should be.
I am Bipolar and fought tooth and nail all the time I was growing up to be like everyone else. Seemed the harder I tried the further from normal I got.
I got shit at school endlessly and not from the students most of the time.
I got bucket loads of shit at home.
It was never ending reminders that I failed everyone.
I couldn't just be like everyone else.
But even tho I am still pretty fucked in the head I am a lot more comfortable with it.
I have found a few friends that except me like the broken toy I am and I believe they actually like that about me.
Things take time to wash out.
I'm sure this isn't exactly what you were looking for but I have read the rest of the comments and I see where you appreciate this place for what it can be.
You just gotta hang in there for a bit more and try to roll with the punches as crappy as that sounds.
Sorry I don't have anything more to offer.