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saladtweezers Then it will get better. It can seem hard to find an ending now, because you have no option to get away from home. But remember that you've made it this far, and you're reaching that final stretch before you move out and can find some freedom to create your own space and person. I grew up in a very, very conservative home that bordered on abusive (probably was tbh), but freedom DOES come. It comes with responsibilities that can be hard to understand until you actually have them- supporting yourself is no joke. But you can do it.
Make a plan for yourself. Do your best in school so you can try to get a job while you're there and start saving up money. If you do well enough in school, you may even be able to get a scholarship that includes boarding. Make a one year, three year, and five year plan for yourself, so you don't feel like you are just stuck in one place with no progress. See if you have any friends who would be willing to save up, too, and move out with you when the time comes. Try to figure out what you want to do as a career, or at least as a job you would be okay with for up to three years, and see if you can build up references in highschool so you can jump into it faster at 16-18: Like I wanted to be a teacher, so by 18 I had worked at a day camp, nursery, and daycare.
It's about building up reference, resources and plans for the future. When you're stuck in the same house with the same people for 18 years, I know it can feel like a standstill and that nothing will ever change, but so long as you do what YOU can and focus on that (because YOUR actions are the only ones you can control), I promise change comes as you get older. You hit an age where you can MAKE it come, and as a teenager, it's getting closer and closer to you. As tacky as it sounds, seriously, try to change your mindset. When you are upset, go from "I hate this, it will never change, I just want it to end" and instead say "I hate this, what can I do to bring change and get out of here when I can?"
