For the record, I just had one of the worst xmas holidays I can remember and it was mostly 'cause of my mother...

Unless you want to still be dealing with this 💩 when you're 55 (guess who I'm talking about 😅) try to get some "emotional" distance from them and their ways (I know it's easier said than done) and maybe see a therapist.
Depending on where you are, there could be government provided (free) services that can help.

Parents don't always know what they're doing and some of them don't care to figure it out; they cause damage without ever realizing it and those scars can run deep.
Life is a beautiful thing though... and you deserve to live it with a smile on your face.

I wish you well 🤗

In my professional opinion, you need to find a way to communicate with them, but in two-way mode. Not just them. Not just you.

Parent yourself. They can’t do it, so you get the chance to become really strong and not need them.

Do your best to find new friends.. Sadly sometimes you cannot fix people.. Your parents might well be psychopathic lacking empathy being unemotional.. In any case there are some things we cannot fix and we need to accept the reality and then put our efforts and energy into people that have empathy and do express emotions with others in a healthy and positive way...

Finding loving people is a wonderful thing.. In this world where more and more people are becoming self centered narcissists it is becoming harder to find such gems..

PS: i will also caution you to make efforts to know yourself because it is highly likely that you have been adversely affected by being born into such an environment.. You may have problems that will adversely affect your relationships with ""Normal people"" It can be very hard to respond in the normal way with normal people if you have lived in a twisted family environment and so you have had no practice at being normal.. You may need counseling..

my parents weren't that emotional either and i turned out alright. why is everyone looking at me like that? 🤔

So sorry you are feeling so sad. Please tell a school counselor or someone at the school that you are feeling suicidal and dial or text 988 (a suicide and crisis line)

Tbh my best coping mechanism was just to tune out the world. Try weed and video games until you become an adult. Life gets better when you are able to cut anyone you want out of your life.

Think about what you have said they don’t know what emotions are get a fucking grip think it’s your attitude I bet you think that they do nothing for you only your clothes food home and what ever you do wrong they will be there