i'm so sick and tired of living.

I'm so sick and tired of living, everyone expects high from me, I've always tried my best and it's always not enough. I'm doing everything I can to make them proud but I just end up disappointing them. everyone only notices me when I do something wrong, I've always tried but all they see are my mistakes. even though it's just 1 mistake they'll always be disappointed in me they would shout at me for it. no one understands my feelings, I just want to have someone to talk to, someone who will listen, is it too much to ask??? I'm so sick and tired of being the "happy" and "therapist" friend. No one listens when I tell them my problems because "I'm just a kid" and "I'm too young to have a problem". I'm so sick of being left out and tired of life too. No one stays as my friend cause for them I'm annoying, which is true ever since I was a kid no one ever stays, everyone left me, even my parents don't what to spend time with me my parents think I'm annoying. they've always fat-shamed me and always make me feel like I'm ugly and worthless. I just want someone to love and accept me for who i am.

Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

It sounds like you're an empathetic person who puts others first, but you have to learn to put yourself first. I was like that also so I know.

You're sick of living the way that you're living, which is good because it's the catalyst for meaningful change. Write a list of things you don't like, and be objective, could be "I don't like that I feel like I have one sided friendships".

Then why do I end up in one sided friendships, I give too much/don't have healthy boundaries.

How do I change it, I put my emotional well being first and only help those who return the favour and respect me.

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You can ask as many why's as you like as sometimes it takes a few of them.

If you do that for issues in your life you wanna change you'll have answers and then I have actions. I'd talk to your parents about what bothers you as well, write it down first.

Carissimi · F

You must stop being a people pleaser, and trying to gain acceptance. People lose respect for people pleasers, so you are going to have to stop “trying,” and start pleasing yourself for a change. This can seem very strange to a young person whose parents are like “God” to them, and its natural to want their love and approval, and they may well love you, but perhaps they are immature, and don’t know any better. As hard as it is, you will have to be the grown up, and stand up for yourself. You can still show respect to your parents, but do it with strength of character and belief in your own worth, rather than subservient and trying to please them, and everyone else. Make your own peace of mind and happiness your first priority.

Fungirlmmm · 51-55, F

You know I can understand what you mean. But here is tthe thing, I can read the depression in your words. You are trying to please everyone when you only have to please yourself.