i'm so sick and tired of living.

I'm so sick and tired of living, everyone expects high from me, I've always tried my best and it's always not enough. I'm doing everything I can to make them proud but I just end up disappointing them. everyone only notices me when I do something wrong, I've always tried but all they see are my mistakes. even though it's just 1 mistake they'll always be disappointed in me they would shout at me for it. no one understands my feelings, I just want to have someone to talk to, someone who will listen, is it too much to ask??? I'm so sick and tired of being the "happy" and "therapist" friend. No one listens when I tell them my problems because "I'm just a kid" and "I'm too young to have a problem". I'm so sick of being left out and tired of life too. No one stays as my friend cause for them I'm annoying, which is true ever since I was a kid no one ever stays, everyone left me, even my parents don't what to spend time with me my parents think I'm annoying. they've always fat-shamed me and always make me feel like I'm ugly and worthless. I just want someone to love and accept me for who i am.

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Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

It sounds like you're an empathetic person who puts others first, but you have to learn to put yourself first. I was like that also so I know.

You're sick of living the way that you're living, which is good because it's the catalyst for meaningful change. Write a list of things you don't like, and be objective, could be "I don't like that I feel like I have one sided friendships".

Then why do I end up in one sided friendships, I give too much/don't have healthy boundaries.

How do I change it, I put my emotional well being first and only help those who return the favour and respect me.

So
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Why
Why
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You can ask as many why's as you like as sometimes it takes a few of them.

If you do that for issues in your life you wanna change you'll have answers and then I have actions. I'd talk to your parents about what bothers you as well, write it down first.