This is silly

I don't know what to do with my life anymore, school is so hard it's making me so stressed plus my family problems, sometimes I just wanna close my eyes and never wake up again. What did I do to deserve this? Does God really hate me that much? I want to be loved, I want someone to tell me that they love me, I want to be hugged, I want to cry on someone shoulder and vent out every problems I have. I don't want to cry infront of them because it makes me look weak. You took all my savings and tell me it's my fault? I know you raised me, took care of me. But it's my savings. I'm trying so hard please just love me.