I truely do not know how to feel.
Life just keeps getting more complicated and the anxiety pit in my stomach keeps getting bigger.
I saw a picture with ex gf and the girl she said she wasn't going to see cozying on a beach, so I messaged her basically asking if she lied to me. She never gave me a straight up answer so I'm pretty sure it was a "yes but not on purpose"... She then told me she's glad I reached out because she was wanting too and didn't know how. She wants to be friends. When we broke up, we did say we would start off as friends and see where the wind takes us but with the addition of cozy girl I feel not so great about the idea. I just don't know if I can sit around and watch the girl I fell in love with be loved by the girl who broke everything. I'm going to try, because ex truely is a wonderful human being, I want her in my life no matter what, I just don't what the other one. I want her gone. But I don't get to decide that.
Also, she hasn't interacted with my bf (also her ex) at all since the break up, but has been mildly interacting with me for about two weeks. She even blocked him from seeing her stories on IG and snapchat, so I feel like the issues she had were more for him. I can see how weird it would be to stay dating your partner but not their bf when you were all dating before. But this is making it weird too. He feels super left out and like she never wants to be his friend, and I'm trying to tell him anything to make him feel better about the situation but I feel the same way. She's always had a bit of issues with him but things were going so well before cozy shower up. I don't know whats going to happen, it's too much and I just want to have a nap.
I saw a picture with ex gf and the girl she said she wasn't going to see cozying on a beach, so I messaged her basically asking if she lied to me. She never gave me a straight up answer so I'm pretty sure it was a "yes but not on purpose"... She then told me she's glad I reached out because she was wanting too and didn't know how. She wants to be friends. When we broke up, we did say we would start off as friends and see where the wind takes us but with the addition of cozy girl I feel not so great about the idea. I just don't know if I can sit around and watch the girl I fell in love with be loved by the girl who broke everything. I'm going to try, because ex truely is a wonderful human being, I want her in my life no matter what, I just don't what the other one. I want her gone. But I don't get to decide that.
Also, she hasn't interacted with my bf (also her ex) at all since the break up, but has been mildly interacting with me for about two weeks. She even blocked him from seeing her stories on IG and snapchat, so I feel like the issues she had were more for him. I can see how weird it would be to stay dating your partner but not their bf when you were all dating before. But this is making it weird too. He feels super left out and like she never wants to be his friend, and I'm trying to tell him anything to make him feel better about the situation but I feel the same way. She's always had a bit of issues with him but things were going so well before cozy shower up. I don't know whats going to happen, it's too much and I just want to have a nap.
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