I am grieving at the moment.

I feel so awful.

My heart has broken. Someone who loved me so much died 8 days before birthday. He was my protector. I have no one in this world cared about me anymore. I wanted to commit suicide when he was gone within 2 weeks. There are a lot of businesses here that I have to deal so my children won't have a lot of issues when I die.

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moonlightlullaby · 46-50, F

I'm sorry you're hurting but your children need you and your heart needs to be with them. They can offer you more healing and strength than your deceased friend could. And what does this tell them, mommy wanted to die because her friend died. She left us because we're nothing to her. What a shame that would be.