I am grieving at the moment.

I feel so awful.

My heart has broken. Someone who loved me so much died 8 days before birthday. He was my protector. I have no one in this world cared about me anymore. I wanted to commit suicide when he was gone within 2 weeks. There are a lot of businesses here that I have to deal so my children won't have a lot of issues when I die.

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Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F

I am so sorry my husband died 2 weeks after his birthday in July.
I admit I am having a hard time, and when the depression hits hard, I wish I could sleep forever.
Your children will not understand, and they need you.
My grandchildren need me, and it keeps me alive.

Arrow17 · F

@Justmeraeagain I have nobody lived near me here. I am living in a cold and empty house on my own.

Nick1 · 61-69, M

@Arrow17 Hope you do have heat, specially during this colder season. Last thing you want is getting sick when you’re alone. Sickness is luxury us single people can’t afford.

Justmeraeagain · 56-60, F

@Arrow17 I live by myself as well.

Arrow17 · F

@Justmeraeagain we are in the same path.

Arrow17 · F

@Nick1 Yes, I have heating supply but I turn it off because it's so expensive electricity and gas here compare to Asia. I can't live here without a job.

I have a house in Asia electricity was £3 a month and water was £5 a month when I was staying there. The maintenance fee is expensive there. Hopefully, I can sell the house there.