If you ever had a close family member die...

Did you start thinking about your own time on earth a lot more? Every day since my dad passed in February, I'm thinking of A. How sad it is Bec it was so fast, and B. How much more time do I have?
Will I get cancer too? Will I get some other severe disease? Or get hit head on by a speeding car?
It makes me realize how little time we have and to maybe start LIVING more. But it also makes me so helpless, that we all leave here😢

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Jayciedubb · 56-60, M

My older sister died weeks before her 32nd birthday and it rattled me to my core. I never used it as a source of reflection because she died of her own bad habit.

My wife and I had as many years together as my sister had in total. She passed away a couple months ago on her birthday. I think about it a lot.

She lived a much healthier lifestyle than I do. It was always an unspoken foregone conclusion that it would have been me who goes first.

She left me as the sole caregiver to our adult, helplessly disabled son who's leaning on me now as i write this, making me make mouth fart noises for him so he can blame them on his mom and/or his lola, neither of whom are here, as far as i know.

My wife (his mom) died of cancer. It was a long and painful demise that i wouldn't wish on anyone. It was 6+ years of suffering.

I have to hope to go out in a similar fashion so ill be able to make arrangements for my son. If I end up having an aneurysm or heart attack or something quick, my son will likely suffer a long slow death besides me wondering WTF

I'm sure there's an app or something that is pulse activated that would alert his brother if ever my pulse stops.

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@Jayciedubb many sympathies for your wife, and sister😟🌷