I’m tired…

My condolences about your mother.


Losing my mom was one of the toughest things in my life. She was only 58 yo and I was 35yo. My mom was my hero. She raised my sister and me with little help from anyone , while working her way to the top position in the data processing dept of the largest college book publisher in the world , without a college degree. I was holding one of her hands and my sister was holder her other hand when she took her last breath. I could physically feel something travel down my arm and leave my body when that happened, but I could still feel her presence in the room with us. Things that make you go Humm.

Just remember the good times , she would want you to travel on a be successful navigating life. She is with you every breath you take and every step along the way. It's okay to talk to her sometimes if that helps.

I didn't fully recover from my god mother, who was much more of a mother to me than my mother ever was, until I lit the candle to her one year anniversary at her central diocese in pittsburgh. I broke out in a torrent of intimidation and tears when lighting the candle and couldn't stay, but I got over it after that.

That was a very rough year for me though. I never had to mourn for anyone before, and likely never will again. I'm not much of a people person.

Losing a mother does make you feel this way. Give yourself time to grieve, then think about what she would say to you.
Be happy and live your life for her, you're part of her so she will always be with you. You’ll probably say something one time and think, "thats my mama talking". Most of us do it because they live on in us. Wishing you well.

It hit me very hard when my
Mum passed away. It takes about a year to start feeling normal again.

so sorry to hear i am

May she rest in peace. I hope you can one day find the peace you're looking for.

I've been where you are today and what you describe is exactly what I experienced as well.