My brother is dying...

My brother was diagnosed with a terminal brain cancer a little over a year ago. They tried treatment all this time and have decided he is ready for hospice care. I've been a spiritual person in the past. I've been through losing best friends and family members before. I'm just getting to a point where I'm angry at God. Not sure if there is a God per say. I grew up religious but my experiences have shown me both presence of a greater being and feeling so hopeless that it's easier to believe there's no greater being. Because what greater being what let these awful things happen to people who have lived their lives in the light. Maybe just getting this out but anyone else know how I feel?

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Thingscanonlygetbetter · 41-45, F

I too am the same .
Baptised a Catholic
Went to Catholic School . Had Religion drummed into me untill i was in high school.

My Mum n Dad Split up when i was 3 .
My Brother overdosed and died when i was 5.
Didnt have a good childhood . My Mum wasnt a nice person .
Went to live with my Dad at 12.
Cut to the chase.

When i was 30 my partner of 16 years was diagnosed with Cancer ,
I was full term pregnant with our 3rd child .
Whilst he underwent treatments , Opperations . And everything else that comes with this fucking horrible disease.
It spread . So more of the above .
This went on for about 3 years .
After id had my youngest , he was about 4 months old . I had a phonecall early morning to say my Dad had unexpectidly dropped dead .
I felt so alone .
And thats all it seems to be lately is people dieing . Parents burying there children ffs .
So i get it , i do , i also hate God with Avengence xxxx

James1956 · 61-69, M

I watched my mother pass away from health issues, my dad from leukemia and watched my wife suffer and pass, in less than 18 months, from cancer. My wife rarely ever missed church and was very devoted to it. Makes me wonder why a supposedly loving God allows such suffering.

cycleman · 61-69, M

Nevermind the God bs.
Being with your brother will provide you so much love to him and for yourself as well

hippyjoe1955 · 61-69, M

We are here but for a season. I lost a son when he was 20. I was devastated until God revealed His Love for me and my late son. Peace is much better than anger. If you need to chat I do use PMs on here.

James1956 · 61-69, M

I understand your feelings completely.

Behindbrowneyes · 36-40, F

@James1956 have you experienced a similar situation?

Justenjoyit · 61-69, M

One of my friends has studied alternative medicine and is now practicing it, he told me a few years ago and I pass the information on as I go along in life. He says when people are told by the Drs to go home and get your affairs in order because they cant help anymore with treatment. He can save 4 out of 10 people who come to him in this state, he uses intravenous vitamin c which does not cost that much at all, I think he changes 90euro a time. If you Google intravenous vitamin c for cancer patients its very interesting.

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