Just because you keep picturing your loved ones dying doesn’t mean you’re killing them, right???

What you're saying is you're not in control, but you really are. You just have to exercise it. I don't believe in this notion that we can't help ourselves. We know right from wrong and that's our power. We can choose not to do something we don't like. We just tell ourselves we are weak but we're not. You can take it or leave it. It just depends on how bad you want something.