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I used to spend hours on this site pretending to be a girl, until I realized I was supposed to be one

So, throughout my twenties, I had several different accounts where I took on a female persona, including a few on this site. Now, I was a guy in real life. Everyone knew me as a guy, and I thought of myself as a guy. But I had this strange hobby of...

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bluegrasslover · 41-45, M

I love your story❤💋

Jessmari · 41-45

Apparently, I liked this post a long time ago and now feel bad about being a smart ass on the other one 🥺

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DarkHeaven ·

@Dicey just be careful. people are mean and I get super protective because my best friend my whole life was trans, and she took her own life over 20 years ago. I just want people to be okay. And I get scared, sometimes.

Dicey · 26-30, F

@DarkHeaven I'm sorry that that happened to your best friend and how that must have affected you 🙁 I hope you've been able to find some peace with it

DarkHeaven ·

@Dicey I did find some healing by posting about it. It was way emotional for me, so I did it in sections but this links to all of them if you’d like to read.

https://similarworlds.com/thoughts/personal-feelings/4412503-My-memorial-to-my-friend-Part-1-thoughts-personal

thewindupbirdchronicles · 46-50, M

I appreciate this post, thank you. I'm glad you have talked with someone and have made the decision with advice and guidance.

I might be a rare person on here (there are others) that recognizes, and respects, we are not all born with physical features that match our inner and outer social/sexual (I call social) nature.

Thank you for sharing.

Dicey · 26-30, F

@thewindupbirdchronicles Thanks for your reply! I appreciate that you believe me when I talk about how my inner self doesn't match my outer self. I'm hopeful that they will match in the future.

thewindupbirdchronicles · 46-50, M

@Dicey I think that is for you to find out, and how. You are making steps, and I do forget how hard it is for some, so take this of me as encouragement. 🤗

Wallflow3r

One of the most honest and wholesome posts I've read on here. This is not an easy thing to share and makes me understand Trans people a bit better. Good luck on your journey.

Dicey · 26-30, F

@Wallflow3r Thanks! It warms my heart to know that I'm being honest when, for a long time, it felt like I was being dishonest. I appreciate your reply.

Wallflow3r

@Dicey No problem💕

SW-User

It takes courage to share something like this, or even explore your truth. Your acceptance of yourself as well as the limitations you will have is humbling.

Dicey · 26-30, F

@SW-User Thanks for your reply. It was scary because I was worried that what I would uncover would ruin my life. Now, I think things are going to be okay and I have a lot of hope for the future.

PTCdresser57 · 61-69, M

Congratulations on finding your true self. Transition will take time. How does your wife feel about having a woman as a spouse instead of a man?

Scribbles · 36-40, F

I love this post! Good luck! 🤗

Dicey · 26-30, F

@Scribbles Thanks! I wrote this six months ago, and my life is so different for the better now 😊

Jessmari · 41-45

It seems you have had a long time to consider this. I get the need to be percieved a certain even if you didn't understand it at the time. I know the feeling of what if things were different. Good luck with your journey.

Dicey · 26-30, F

@Jessmari Thanks! It's really consumed my thoughts for most of this year, and it's been helpful to talk about it in therapy and with other people. It sounds like you've experienced some similar feelings, and I hope you are at peace with yourself.

Jessmari · 41-45

@Dicey Definately visit these thoughts a lot. I think I'm in a good place right now. Thanks and the same to you as well.

Ontheroad · M

Wow! Just wow! I wish only the best for you in your journey and applaud and recognize what it took to write this post. I admire you so much... such bravery is not often seen.

Oh, and your wife - she is a 100% keeper!

Dicey · 26-30, F

@Ontheroad Thank you so much!

And you're absolutely right. I'm very lucky to have her!

dale74 · M

Just because you cut it off will never make you a female You will never know what it's like to have a menstrual cycle. You will never know what it feels like to give child birth.

littlepuppywantanewlife · 31-35, M

No harm in experimenting but remember your inner character. Exterior is always going to change. It's how we are from inside matters.

Dicey · 26-30, F

@littlepuppywantanewlife Thanks. You're absolutely right that inner character matters most. I'll strive to be a good person.

littlepuppywantanewlife · 31-35, M

@Dicey 🙂

SStarfish ·

Let me know which ones are yours so i can unblock em (i need space) 😅 gahh

Dicey · 26-30, F

@SStarfish I checked earlier, but I think they've all been deleted, so they're probably not on your block list anymore. Sorry!

SStarfish ·

Ok 😅 cheers 🙂@Dicey

Cantsayno · 56-60, M

Congratulations on your transfer and being honest with yourself and people on here.

Torsten · 36-40, M

and your wife is cool with that?

Dicey · 26-30, F

@Torsten It's been challenging for our relationship. But we love each other, and we're making it work.

Torsten · 36-40, M

@Dicey you got a good wife there

Dicey · 26-30, F

@Torsten I'm very lucky to have her

ninalanyon · 61-69, T

Thank you for writing this. It was moving!

Strictmichael75 · 61-69, M

Very brave of you to explain yourself 😊😊

REMsleep · 41-45, F

Becareful. Sometimes things can feel like a fix for a certain feeling when its not. Feelings are a funny thing and getting caught in the excitement of doing something that we never knew was possible is intoxicating.