Is there something about your life that makes you really angry?

Either a regret or an experience etc...

I was thinking today of how MUCH my life has been based in terror or fear. Years of sadistic and narcissistic abuse as a kid, so those blueprints that I'm somehow less and have no rights, are still engrained. I get REALLY mad now, seeing everyone living their best lives, traveling, getting jobs, finding love...and I've wasted my life in fear that I'm not enough. Yes I'm working on these issues but it's very hard to suddenly just believe in goodness for yourself when your whole being was made in a hellish parasite.
Ill be working even harder to change this around, because who knows how long we ever have left in this short time on earth 😟💜

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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

The man my mom marriage. I unfortunately will hate him for the rest of my life. He destroyed my mother, manipulated her, and took what should of been my son's. He lied in the most hurtful of ways. He alienated me. He stole from me. But most of all he took my mother away from me too soon. Then he moved on to his next victim.

Baybreeze · 41-45, F

@ScreamingFox I'm so sorry- what did you mean by 'took my mother away from me' ? I cannot stand manipulators or liars. ughhhh. People say forgive , but I recently saw an actual psychologist, who herself had been a victim of narcissists, say, 'I don't HAVE to forgive. If they tried to take my soul, my life, etc... I don't need to forgive THAT.' She's the only one professional that went agains t others that alwyas say, just forgive people.

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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Baybreeze you're aware of it and know yourself better now, that's incredible steps forward. You will be able to stand up to her. Sometimes the only thing they hear is your silence too...

But yeah my mom didn't deserve that by any means. 5-6 years I think.

Sometimes people seem so sick you feel like even if you treated them how they treat you they wouldn't notice anything.

Distance ended up being what finally healed me. I left it all behind and grew my world.