Well wasn't this a ride.

Now I'm back to the baseline.
I probably should never have thought I can surf higher than my chronic record.
I just don't deserve love. I feel I never will. My mind is too fu.cked up. I just want to be normal. Idk what got into me to make me so hopeful. Hope is a toxic thing. It makes us delusional. It makes us think that the cuckoo-est things are possible. Hope just sets us up for disappointment. This is why I'm a realist. Idk why I hoped for a short while. I shouldn't have. Maybe one thing going right in life doesn't mean everything will finally fall in place. Some things just don't change. And it's probably for the best. I think I'm more comfortable in my reality than I am in any kind of hope.

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twistedrope · 26-30, M

I don't hope personally. I plan and study, relaxing to destress then go back to working on my projects so I can know a little bit of what to expect when things go wrong and plan around them. Things go right if I'm at the helm most of the time but entrusting my future plans to someone else is really difficult.

You'll do better without hope. Hope is the refuge of those born into caring families imo. But when you meet someone who genuinly cares about you, you can trust them and hope again. Its just something like that I think.

daydeeo · 61-69, M

If that is what you believe, that will be your results.
Change your expectations.

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