How can I accept that I will never be a petite woman?

I’ve always been jealous of the tiny/petite or smaller women. I’m jealousy of average height and shorter women. I’ve alway been taller and bigger than most women. Probably 95% bigger than most women. I’m 6ft, large built, 235lbs, wide hips, broad shoulders and I feel manly. I’ve been dumped twice for my height and size. My first boyfriend dumped me for a petite, short girl. He broke my heart. I would look on the internet for surgery to make me shorter and have shorter feet but I know it’s impossible. I still look up surgery to make me little shorter. Im currently losing weight. I don’t understand why short or average height women want to be as tall as me! I’m tired of hearing “Oh I wish I was taller/as tall as you! You’re so lucky and you get taken more seriously.”
My friend called me “intimidating” and said that I’m so intimidating that I scare most guys off but it’s a good thing and people listen to me and take me seriously when I’m pissed.
Anyways I am still jealous of petite and average height women. I hate my size 13/14W feet! So tired of being disrespected and people making a huge deal about my size. I’m 20.