I'm unsure and losing hope. I'm not positive and my faith is starting to crumble. I'm hurt, I'm worried and ready to just give up. I'm sad, I'm angry. I am fucking tired. I'm sick of trying to stay positive and trying to stay strong and believe everything will be ok because it's been almost a year & nothing has improved. Nothing is working. Nothing is pretty anymore. Sometimes I just have to accept defeat for what it is, a fucking LOSS. It isn't a test or a lesson or a setback or a stumbling block, it's a fucking loss and I am tired. Fake smiles and empty words are all that's left of me. I just need to fall apart for awhile, like the fucking trainwreck I really am.
Hang on in there, whatever you do. This sounds like serious depression to me, and you must speak to your GP if you are feeling this way. Remember that any situation, however bad, is temporary -there is always light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. Grit your teeth, focus on the things that make you most happy, and reach out to family, friends and if necessary, medical professionals who understand your negative feelungs. Don't be too hard on yourself and take each day as you find it. Best wishes.
That's why they call it TOXIC positivity. A positive mental attitude is having the proper mental attitude for a given circumstance. NOT to be gushing all the time. In other words, it's okay and normal to be sad in a sad situation. It's okay and normal to be angry in a situation that would make a normal person angry, and it's okay and normal to be happy and laughing during a joyous event. This "always be kind" narrative that is being pushed in society is a bunch of BS. STOP IT! So what if you only have a few friends. Better a few than 1000 who you have to continuously appease to keep them. And ignore the social media platitudes. They are phony, they don't mean a thing, and they don't help. There, friend. 🙂
Im so sorry you are feeling this way. I can only say after a storm the clouds will clear. Hang in there sweet tumbles this too shall pass. Love you and 🫂
