I am in this ultimately awkward position

@Menetics the whole situation is complex, but no worries, no need to take back anything. It helps me to put things in perspective, answering whether should I apologize or not. His sister is in this mood "you ruined our day" so just this mood makes me not feeling like apologizing. Uh anyways ... truly what triggered me was yesterday it was my birthday and I felt as a burden instead of feeling celebrated.
I wish I wouldn't decide to spend my time with someone who doesn't really value my presence...

@being Belated Happy Birthday! I’m you had to go through this on your birthday. I hope everything will be sorted out soon before you leave. I wish you all the best.

@Menetics thank you...🤗💟

@Dshhh thank you, I'll hang tight and days will pass by....

@assemblingaknob will try to focus outwards. I would love to be in the position to do that, break the ice, but it feels so pretentious at the moment.. it's an ego thing. He knows I am in this shitty place but he's unable to help. And I don't want to. But reading it, i realized that'd be nice

@being Pretentious maybe but also diplomatic...it helps appease the anxiety around the situation and says "sorry" without actually saying sorry and builds a positive impression in their heads to counter any previous negative thoughts. It's just being proactive, not a bad thing really.

@HannibalAteMeOut I'm not sure anymore whose fault is it and if it's not mine. .. but thank you, just acknowledging.. 🖤

@being it's not, but in the future you might learn how to handle this in another way. But if right now that's all you have, nobody can blame you. It would be different if you had your own personal space for sure.

@HannibalAteMeOut yes, you're right..I need to give myself a break, I'm too stressed 🥴

@being You are what you are, and will be. But the world we live in works as a society. And sometimes we have to adjust ourselves as per the people we live with. It will definitely seem uncomfortable to you. But you have to take it as a challenge. No, it will not change who you are. Just getting dynamic as per the scenario is challenging, but we can just give it a try. We may not do well, giving it a try would be ok.

The behavior that you have observed afterwards maybe because of your previous lack of involvement. When we try to make/maintain a relationship, we need to ignore many things, few things we have to assume in positive way, and also need to initiate many things from our side. Like when he left you both at the beach restaurant, maybe he did it intentionally to give you both time and space so that you develops a relation as you both have to live in the same house for some time. For the gift you can think it of like she was not aware of your taste and just wanted to be sure that you likes it.

I can understand trying to change how you interact with others is very very challenging. But we can just put our effort what we can do, so that we would not feel bad that we even didn't tried. You can share with her that you are introvert, ask sorry for your inability to interact properly, and at the same time try to start conversation.

All the best !!

@ABCDEF7 thank you, time helped with the perspective... and your text I completely get it now. I am more at ease and knowing myself even better.. But I had an intense crisis. Totally unexpected 🤪

@being Take care..

@Lilnonames I am failing and I am allowing it to happen. My boyfriend watched me fall and he went to party yesterday. I mean good for him. I don't know what the fuck am I expecting. We're about to break up because I am leaving. It could be more 'adult' you know... but it seems I cannot. He cannot. we.