@Mergirl123 Oopsy. I should have looked at your profile first. My apologies since you aren't new. No offense was taken, I hope.🤗
This update has opened my eyes to people I've never seen in my 4 year history here. Literally.😳 But I'm grateful because I've met some interesting peeps.😊
@MoonlightLullaby no problem... i have used EP b3for3 this didnt quite join sw when they change it eas so differ3nt and ppl were nore friendly on ep tbh... but oh well
Solitude is my solace, it makes me whole, By myself in my room where the lack of noise eases my mind, The calm, the peace within me, helps me unwind,
The comfort of being alone radiates my soul, Not a place for distractions or feeling lonely and blind, My breathing so calm, my inner conscience no longer connected to time,
Drifting thoughts and painful memories, no longer taking their toll, The peace within no longer difficult to find, The soothing silence creating the perfect rhyme,
My heart feeling the warmth, no longer cold, Left alone on a desolate beach, watching the ocean waves unwind, The gift of solitude is ever so kind, so divinely sublime.
@therighttothink50 Well, I do find it in nature... completely. For the most part, I do by myself. I'm just complicated all together. It's an innate trait (along with other traits) that I'm better understanding each passing month, it seems.😉
I have always needed space, my time to reflect and be alone. Even when I was a child. I often feel my energy drained, and that exhausts me mentally and physically. "My time" is for recharging. I like being in nature, sometimes listening to music, other times the birds. I also enjoy taking the time to sit and read. That relaxes me too. I do not like being around crowds; much more at ease on my own.
@JerseyGal I've been the same way since childhood. I was always wise before my age so to speak, and never really felt at ease unless I was alone with my music and/or in nature. Later in life, I finaally realized that ache in my chest and belly was actually anxiety. 😩
I tried to be the life of the party at one point, as it was seemingly expected of me because I can be extremely funny, but I was miserable. I kinda pushed most people away and I'm much happier with nil to none in my life.😌🤭
Yeah, I need lots of recharging time or I really feel it. I had to be unusually social with multiple people yesterday, for example, and I was exhausted.
@ButterRobot Yeah, I've become very reclusive. I don't just stay inside though, as I enjoy nature a lot. It's my refuge. Especially the cosmos...the moon has always been my favorite companion.
@ButterRobot I love water. The river is MY place.💙
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Yes, and it's usually in direct proportion to how much time I've been spending around others. However, I am not so good at discerning who it affects, as I have been known to "go quiet" on even those closest to me.
@SW-User I think you know by now that I absolutely get what you're feeling...ALL of your complications and contradictions are seemingly my own. Bless you, poor child.💝🥺🌷
The more difficult or busy my day has been, the more I need alone time . It might sounds strange but that was the silver lining about getting Covid . I was left alone for a long time with nothing much to do 😊
@masterofyou This makes me sad. 😢 I know your life is far from easy and the older you both get, the more detrimental/overwhelming things get. I'm sure your body is weary and worn out, especially your soul. Feel all your feelings, but PLEASE reach out if you're in a rough spot.🥀🖤
I like my space, yes. I don’t think I need to be necessarily alone, so much as that I need quiet time with low stimuli or ‘recharge time’ where nobody requires my attention
@SW-User Good for you blocking that specific person. I've started doing the same thing myself. It's monotonous to be so selfish and childish. Silent treatments are especially disheartening, even online. I've known that hell too well unfortunately. Months of it, and also my presence completely ignored for days. Poor you. No thanks is ever needed when I offer support, but you're welcome.😉
@SW-User Sorry if my cheerful ending seemed too forward by that reaction. I'm just being friendly. The silent treatment stuff happened in a LDR just in case you were wondering why I allowed it to go on for so long. 😬
@BeefySenpie Do you mean alone time doesn't necessarily bring happiness all the time, just sometimes? Enlighten me on what you mean, Mr Beefy. I'm really analytical regarding human behavior.😉
@CrazyMusicLover I understand both statements clearly. I can be in the presence of one particular person that bring me complete calm without even saying much at all. Even while we're just connected to the internet.
@AwakeningConfession221122 Been there myself. I have some darker type poetry from a couple years back when I went a bit apathetic. Yikes, it was awful.🖤🥀
@AwakeningConfession221122 Please reach out for help before you do. Do you have anyone? It's such a slippery slope and one that's hard to pry your way out of. It's a scary place.🥺
@NerdyPotato [quote]but some people count as alone time.[/quote]
I totally relate to this because someone I know goes stoic just like me and we bring each other out of it easy peasy without saying too much of anything at all, and typically we say too much.😊
@mondayschild2 Yeah, they make me nervous too. Not communication wise, just too much of too much going on around me. I dread going out, yet crave it. I'm a weirdo...😱
@markansas Thanks for sharing. It's complicated to put into words, but I'm actually okay with it. That was the intent of my post ... [b]I'd rather be alone[/b]. People, for the most part, exhaust me.🤭 My alone time is precious and priceless.
@Starcrossed Please accept my apology for not seeing your comment sooner. My notifications suck at times. Happy to see another person that resonates with this need. It helps to know we're never alone.
@SlippingAway It's a necessity, and I think a healthy one at times, as we should all learn to like our own company. I just can't "people" all the time.😬
@SW-User I TOTALLY relate. I'm far from bad in times of silence/aloneness right now. It's an act of self love and preservation. I seek my true blessing in life and that's nature because I'm never really alone when I'm there.
Stay strong with that middle finger, and don't ever return to people who hurt you more than help you.😉
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@MoonlightLullaby Whoa sounds like a lot - it's difficult to explain these things to other people without sometimes getting dizzy from just remembering yourself even when you are the one who was there. But I get the gist, I think.
I had this feeling of being alone or 'separate' that came from moving a lot so I resigned myself to loneliness or being apart from everyone else or something. Then I discovered certain hobbies that required solitude - namely art - and so made a certain peace with it without really realising. Later in life but still young I embraced it as best I could, but it's still desired that we have companionship at least some of the time. Someone to see us for who we are.
@MoonlightLullaby it’s different when they are your own. I don’t like other peoples kids 🤣. I am sorry you didn’t get to have your own family. Believe there are times when both kids are throwing up everywhere and on everyone that I think WHY 🤣🤣🤣.
I like to say I enjoy solitude, but not loneliness. Almost all social interaction is costly for me, even the good interactions. I find that the only way for me to really recharge is to borderline isolate myself. There is a balance in-between there but it is hard to find, and being like this does complicate some things.
@PirateMonkeyCabinet THIS is so me, it's uncanny. It's hard explaining it & difficult finding that balance to. I have to isolate and push my mind into stoic mode a lot, for this reason and for times my mind won't shut down (it doesn't otherwise) I'm an extremely complicated person all together; on all levels. It's tiresome. My empathy goes to you.💙
Reach out if you need to, but if you're anything like me, your inbox probably makes you nervous. I hate that I have to let my friends down, but my circle is really small and they understand me by now.
@MoonlightLullaby I absolutely get that, and likewise, my empathy goes to you.
I am glad you have a circle of people around you (be it physical connections or just people here) that understand, respect and accept that this is how things are for you and how you need to deal with it. Far from everyone does. It's great when someone is understanding when you go silent for a longer time. Even if it's been a while they know that you haven't forgotten them, and you know they haven't forgotten you.
I don't know what challenges you face in your life, but I imagine the need for that alone time has been like a multiplier on top of that. I'm sure there are many things I could have picked as examples from my own situation, but when you say you have a really small circle it resonated with me. Don't know if your "motivations" (for lack of a better word) are the same, but just the complication of having to be extremely picky about who I surround myself with leading to that small circle. Not for lack of wanting to have more people in my life, but because there isn't enough social energy to go around.
Hopefully you've found some who not only are understanding, but who know you well enough to often help pull you out if or when you go too far into that isolation mode. That alone can make such a difference.
Very much appreciate the offer and extend the same one to you. 😊
