How do you let go of someone really really special?

Do you have physical things that they gave you ?
If so, put them in a box.

Then you need to write a 'Goodbye' letter.
In it you should write EVERYTHING that person meant/means to you.
All your good thoughts and memories. All your bad.
Then seal it in an envelope and stick it in the box along with anything they gave you.

This is you. Physically purging your life of somebody no longer in it.

Once you're done. Seal the box and put it out of sight.
Deep in the loft or garage maybe.

That's your goodbye.

Grieve if you want. Feel sad. Cry. yell. Scream. Whatever helps you rid your 'soul' of this person.

Feel bereft. For a while. Then move on.

Appreciate what you had instead of grieving that its not current.

You can't really stop thoughts, you have to accept them all. There's no point in trying to block them, you might end up hurting yourself more. This is a very fragile situation and you are practically destined to become hurt in this but you know what you can do, you can try and focus on [b] yourself[/b]. Think about the things that are present and real

You really can't stop the thoughts. What you can do, with practice, is turn the thoughts from wishes to memories.

[b][i]That was then, and this is now. It was lovely, but it's over, in the past. [/i][/b]

not sure how special they were to me. I think I just felt entitled to them.

anyways, they ended up really hurting me so I convinced myself that they're a shitty person. probably not a good method...

It takes so much time.

Let them into your heart. You can love them and not be with them. If you're are caring for their wellbeing, either tell them how you care or let them go and love them the same.

I am trying so hard it's been almost 2 months I am working on it everyday. I know it's hard and I will succeed just some more time.

Why would I ? Unless they dont want me anymore

All in good time.