My opinion as a cis-gendered person may not mean much, but I always felt that the word "trans" implied that it is a process of transition. Getting used to the clothes and makeup is one thing, but also getting used to the reactions and feeling comfortable in your own skin is another.
Studies from detransitioners show that the most common reason they chose to detransition was due to the reactions they got from others. For them it wasn't about their identity, but about how they were treated and perceived by others. You wouldn't be alone for thinking the way you do.
But another alternative may be to move to a place that is more accepting of transpeople. Have you considered relocating somewhere else and building a new life there? Where I live, trans people are much more accepted and it's pretty common to see them out and about. From what I've seen, nobody seems to pay them any mind.
