When you get used to being the one nobody likes

Being ignored and forgotten becomes the norm. You come to expect people treating you like you don't matter. You still try, you still share and give, but you know you'll never get closer to anyone. People that like you can't even like you because so many other people don't. You get used to being alone and learn to like your own company. You value your honesty with yourself and your ability to think freely and do what you like.

Being the outcast means never being safe and you find out quickly people would rather let you die than give you two seconds of support.

But, it means being free of the control and influence of people who don't care. You're free of the people who think they have it all figured out and you are wrong. You're free of the people who find endless fault in you to keep you at a distance. You're free of people who flip flop emotions and personalities depending on the day.

Ugh keep hating me please. The more you push me away, the more free I am of having to appease someone who values self and boundaries and the more space I have for people who value community and honesty.

🖤

Boeing · 36-40

I'm sorry you're having a bad day or moment..
... ..self and boundaries and community and honesty are not two different domains though... for a healthy community, for each member to be able to have their own personal boundaries it is very necessary, otherwise makes for a very chaotic community...
Too much of it of course and there's no community any longer.

Boeing · 36-40

@ScreamingFox just one thing I want to tell you, that because you see people getting attention here or anywhere, that doesn't mean that the relationships are deep. It might as well be a surface level gathering of souls. I believe my sweet friend, people are all here because they are lonely in life, one way or another... So do not be blinded by appearances in the thread... Maybe some suffer more than others, that is absolutely understandable, not all carry the same degrees of feelings, but all try... If you have 5 people here, and I feel very honored to be amongst them! - hey, that is already enough! some do not even have one single person to read their posts...

Now about being such a kind and real person, thank you so much <3 I receive the compliment hehe though I cannot own such a thing, I try to do my best - but a clear look into my life, my parents, sisters, friends or reputation in my hometown, doesn't reflect that... but I continue doing my best..

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Boeing I'm sorry if I offended you. It wasn't my intent. Think it's time to give it all a rest.