When you get used to being the one nobody likes

Being ignored and forgotten becomes the norm. You come to expect people treating you like you don't matter. You still try, you still share and give, but you know you'll never get closer to anyone. People that like you can't even like you because so many other people don't. You get used to being alone and learn to like your own company. You value your honesty with yourself and your ability to think freely and do what you like.

Being the outcast means never being safe and you find out quickly people would rather let you die than give you two seconds of support.

But, it means being free of the control and influence of people who don't care. You're free of the people who think they have it all figured out and you are wrong. You're free of the people who find endless fault in you to keep you at a distance. You're free of people who flip flop emotions and personalities depending on the day.

Ugh keep hating me please. The more you push me away, the more free I am of having to appease someone who values self and boundaries and the more space I have for people who value community and honesty.

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