What are you ashamed of?

I'm ashamed of not feeling calm when others are. I'm ashamed of my body and what it has been through. I'm ashamed I'm not taking care of myself better. I'm ashamed that I'm not always my best version of myself. I'm ashamed for impacting people negatively. I'm ashamed when I'm feeling powerless in my own well being. I'm ashamed I'm not able to do and be more. I'm ashamed I have so little energy. I'm ashamed I'm not talking to my dad more. I'm ashamed when my alters front. I'm ashamed when I can't remember what I've said or done. I'm ashamed when my depression takes over. I'm ashamed when I get cptsd triggers. I'm ashamed of being afraid. I walk around in lots of guilt and shame and that's what I'm gonna work with in therapy.

You recognize it and now you can do better

I'm not going to describe it here except to say that everyone I know seems to think that I was a good husband, and now I seem to be the only one who knows that I should have been so much better.

That's wonderful. I don't think you did that to me but I'd forgive you if you did. 🫂

For me, I also lashed out at people in the past and I am remorseful for some of it. However, I just told someone off on here and I'm not ashamed of it, whatsoever, because that person crossed personal boundaries that should never be crossed, totally disrespecting me. In cases like that I'm only ashamed that I didn't protect myself more.

That's what online forums tend to do to people... especially when it's things they disagree with.

nothing that i can think of. There is no point looking into the past and feeling ashamed or whatever. that will just eat you up and no good comes from it.

I am hoping I have nothing to be ashamed of that I recall . I have tried my best to be a decent person in every way .

Ah well. Self awareness and turning a new leaf count for something. All the best to you.

I am ashamed to say that on March nineth, I ran out of beer. It was the worst 30 min. I have had this year.

Ashamed that I love being alone so much. I really don't miss people all that often and it makes me feel like I'm an awful/defective person.

My bad temper and all the people I have hurt with it

Maybe you don't have any integrity.