Feeling down lately
Obviously I’ve been working too much and juggling too many responsibilities while also having very draining HR calls.
Today I had an appointment for my kiddo to go to speech therapy but my boss sheduled an urgent HR call with our legal advisor and he wanted me present even though I told him about the appointment (also I don’t have to work on Fridays so there was no assumed availability).
I ended up dropping my kid off at the appointment and picking him back up and driving home on the call.
I have so many things to arrange for his ipcoming birthday and my husband insisted on subscribing him to the last swimming lessons our son needs because he was close to being able to swim on his own. He can now and he was right to want us to continue. But honestly, I’ve been driving him to about 3 appointments per week for a year now and work has exploded since a year ago too with lots of people being in burn out or maternity leave or just quitting the toxic atmosphere.
I had a lot of special projects with urgent deadlines, all which I did while still doing my financial management, hr management and general admin responsibilities and training my direct report.
I feel like I’m at my limits and yet everyone, even my husband expects me to just suck it up because everything is always just temporary…
I asked my colleague if he can already see himself taking over for a month because I’m considering taking parental leave for a month and he honestly told me that he just can’t do what I do.
So then I wonder, amidst all this chaos, where am I supposed to still get any rest and energy from. The day off and weekend off don’t do it anymore especially since I’m always with my son then too and he has tons of energy. I want to be able to be there for him fully, but lately I feel like I can’t even do that.
There’s also no real support from anyone and my husband is away from home a lot for a training this month and the upcoming months. He’s even leaving for Helsinki for 5 days on our son’s birthday.
We were supposed to give a small party for the kids in his class. He said I could still do that but I just don’t want to do things by myself all the time. I’ve been doing that on and off for 6 years now with our son and every family obligation from both our sides.
Everything is draining and yet I feel like I have little choices but to keep going.
Today I had an appointment for my kiddo to go to speech therapy but my boss sheduled an urgent HR call with our legal advisor and he wanted me present even though I told him about the appointment (also I don’t have to work on Fridays so there was no assumed availability).
I ended up dropping my kid off at the appointment and picking him back up and driving home on the call.
I have so many things to arrange for his ipcoming birthday and my husband insisted on subscribing him to the last swimming lessons our son needs because he was close to being able to swim on his own. He can now and he was right to want us to continue. But honestly, I’ve been driving him to about 3 appointments per week for a year now and work has exploded since a year ago too with lots of people being in burn out or maternity leave or just quitting the toxic atmosphere.
I had a lot of special projects with urgent deadlines, all which I did while still doing my financial management, hr management and general admin responsibilities and training my direct report.
I feel like I’m at my limits and yet everyone, even my husband expects me to just suck it up because everything is always just temporary…
I asked my colleague if he can already see himself taking over for a month because I’m considering taking parental leave for a month and he honestly told me that he just can’t do what I do.
So then I wonder, amidst all this chaos, where am I supposed to still get any rest and energy from. The day off and weekend off don’t do it anymore especially since I’m always with my son then too and he has tons of energy. I want to be able to be there for him fully, but lately I feel like I can’t even do that.
There’s also no real support from anyone and my husband is away from home a lot for a training this month and the upcoming months. He’s even leaving for Helsinki for 5 days on our son’s birthday.
We were supposed to give a small party for the kids in his class. He said I could still do that but I just don’t want to do things by myself all the time. I’ve been doing that on and off for 6 years now with our son and every family obligation from both our sides.
Everything is draining and yet I feel like I have little choices but to keep going.
