Why don't I die, what's the secret about it?

I'm not asking this out of rebellion, but out of curiosity. (ALSO I'M NOT SUICIDAL ANYMORE)
I had meningitis when I was little, the doctor told my parents I would most likely die. About 4 years ago I fell from the 6th floor and was pretty bad. I was electrocuted several times. I tried to commit suicide many times, took too many drugs but failed. A year and a half ago I was hit by a car, it was pretty fast. Two months after that, I survived the corona severely and they intubated me. And I'm not very healthy, I have an aneurysm in my brain, my blood pressure is high..
Sorry if I said something wrong, English ia not my native language

DunningKruger · 56-60, M

Wow, you've lived through a lot. I'm sorry you've experienced all of that.

You are fortunate that you have made it through all of that reasonably intact. That means you can work toward improving your life — getting your blood pressure under control, maybe even getting your aneurysm clipped or coiled if it's big enough. Most of all, finding whatever it is that you need to give your life meaning and purpose, assuming you haven't already.

Good luck.

belinaytekyol · 18-21, F

@DunningKruger thanks so much

Detrimentalpineapple · 22-25, F

So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life
Look at your life through heaven's eyes

PhoenixPhail · M

I think your still being alive is confirmation your Inner Being - that individuation of God-Source inside of you - is more powerful than the vibrations your putting out, and whatever it is in your identity, that leads you to want to not be here.

I truly believe if a higher power didn't love you, it wouldn't have you being here.

So, maybe the reason you didn't die, is, [u]you are loved.[/u] 💖

belinaytekyol · 18-21, F

@PhoenixPhail what a beautiful answer 🥺

PhoenixPhail · M

@belinaytekyol Thank you. AND, that you think my answer is beautiful, or, you think ANYTHING is beautiful, is [b]proof[/b] you have God's love in your heart.
You do have a connection with the divine. That's clear evidence He wants you to be here. He's watching out for you. That's why you didn't die in any of those episodes you listed.

I'm glad you're here. ♥ So is God.

ABCDEF7 · M

All this hints you are here to do something great in this world.

Have you identified what you are here to do?

[i]"Your work is to discover your work and then with all your heart to give yourself to it."[/i] – Buddha

NotSureAboutMyUserName · 31-35

You're lucky and strong to have survived so many things.

I wish you accident free life atleast in your future.

belinaytekyol · 18-21, F

@NotSureAboutMyUserName thanks so much!

MyNameIsHurl · 41-45, F

You must have a great purpose in life to have survived so much

belinaytekyol · 18-21, F

@MyNameIsHurl maybe..

MyNameIsHurl · 41-45, F

@belinaytekyol for sure

Rambler · M

because it is not your time

Graylight · 46-50, F

In my experience, you have a reason to be here. Become the best person you can, and that reason will become clear.

MonaMoona · F

I thought you won’t let anything hurt your daughter, you wanting to be dead, is hurting her

belinaytekyol · 18-21, F

@MonaMoona my daughter?

MonaMoona · F

@belinaytekyol you said your laying in b
You’re toddlers bed stroking her hair thinking you won’t hurt her