I have this weird self esteem issue where I hate myself but still think I'm better than everyone else.

lol.. sounds like everyone on SW

I'm like that sometimes. :(

i sort of get it. but i think im just only comfortable with myself. i dont really connect with others.

Nah, I try not to compare myself to anyone, but I do tend to hate everyone I meet, and rather not talk to anyone.

I understand that

that sounds confusing

That's called modesty 😉