I Want Someone I Can Tell Anything To
I want someone that I can tell anything to. Based on the membership of this group alone, I’d wager to say that it is a rather common desire. Perhaps it is something we all crave on some base level - which makes it ironic that we are actively preventing it with the way that we present ourselves.
We all have our masks we wear. They are there to protect us and keep hidden the things that we’d rather not want the world to see. Though the mask doesn’t stop out there... we veil ourselves in almost all our communications with other people. We do this mostly as a result of our own fears and insecurities. We are so terrified of rejection that we hide the parts of ourselves most likely to get rejected as a defense. Sadly, we usually end up hiding the most from the people we love the most.
What we don’t realize right away is how isolating it all can be. There are very few things as cold as feeling lonely inside a relationship. The easiest way to achieve that is by hiding parts of yourself from your partner. As the isolation grows, it forms a rift between your partner and yourself, which only feeds into the desire to hide.
But not with you. You unearthed and discovered my deepest darkest truths, without me even being aware of it. You peered behind the veil and saw the ugliness that I try to hide from those I care about... I would have tried to hide it from you as well. You saw it all; yet you did not look away and you did not run.
What this all has left me with, is a relationship in which I can be my complete and honest self without fear of judgement. I am left with a partner that is capable of loving the real me and not just the projected illusion. I am left with someone I can tell anything to. I have never felt less lonely or more loved.
With all this, I want you to know that it would be my honor and my privilege to be the same for you. I want to be the someone you can tell anything to... because I love you - the real you - no masks, no veils, no illusions.
We all have our masks we wear. They are there to protect us and keep hidden the things that we’d rather not want the world to see. Though the mask doesn’t stop out there... we veil ourselves in almost all our communications with other people. We do this mostly as a result of our own fears and insecurities. We are so terrified of rejection that we hide the parts of ourselves most likely to get rejected as a defense. Sadly, we usually end up hiding the most from the people we love the most.
What we don’t realize right away is how isolating it all can be. There are very few things as cold as feeling lonely inside a relationship. The easiest way to achieve that is by hiding parts of yourself from your partner. As the isolation grows, it forms a rift between your partner and yourself, which only feeds into the desire to hide.
But not with you. You unearthed and discovered my deepest darkest truths, without me even being aware of it. You peered behind the veil and saw the ugliness that I try to hide from those I care about... I would have tried to hide it from you as well. You saw it all; yet you did not look away and you did not run.
What this all has left me with, is a relationship in which I can be my complete and honest self without fear of judgement. I am left with a partner that is capable of loving the real me and not just the projected illusion. I am left with someone I can tell anything to. I have never felt less lonely or more loved.
With all this, I want you to know that it would be my honor and my privilege to be the same for you. I want to be the someone you can tell anything to... because I love you - the real you - no masks, no veils, no illusions.
