Whiskey is my weakness

I forgot how much I like whisky. Bought a bottle the other day, been enjoying it. Ex was alcoholic so I rarely drank alcohol.

Always liked drinking whiskey with her dad, even when she'd give me those disapproving gazes. Makes me think about family more.

I've got plans to rejoin my family, but it'll be another 10 years. I rarely see them due to distance, but can't leave my current location due to children. In 10 years, kids be at University and I'll be free to leave.

I fear I won't make enough money to live near my family. It's very expensive and I don't make a lot of money. Been thinking of alternatives - living on a sailboat or van. I've time to figure it out, but I think about it.

So I feel the warmth of whiskey and think these thoughts. And post them. I don't have a lot of answers but I've lived and am thinking of the future.

So dating... I haven't tried yet, not sure if I'm in a good place yet. I want to, but so much advise about not for at least a year, maybe several years. Advise to work on myself , whatever that means... Therapy? Contemplating life? Analyze 20+ marriage for mistakes?

Whiskey... Makes me feel warm and think these things. Random thoughts.