Have you thought about visiting her grave/where you scattered her ashes?
I felt sad for my dog so I went to visit him where we scattered his ashes, incidentally, in the woods.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost a lot of people in my life and if I allowed grief to creep up I'm afraid that I wouldn't recover from it so I have to keep a strong mind . Just keep living for her in a way that would make her proud. She would want you to be happy. 🫂

@QCDog2659 🤔sorry you feel this way on the anniversary of the loss of your mother . she will not wish to see you still grieving like this over death but deep down nobody can say how this sadness effects you

Talk to her. She can hear you. January is always hard month for me to get through. Both my parents died in mid January. It’s a shitty month really