How does it feel like to have a strong father?

My father struggled with depression my whole childhood and teen years and our roles were often reversed. I've just always wished to have a strong shoulder to lean on. I would wish one of the alpine climbers at my mountaneering club would be my father. Then I would have their fearless genes, wouldn't doubt if I'm capable to ever climb multi pitch routes and wouldn't have to preventively look after any first signs of depression due to my predesposition.