Ever feel conflicted about a relationship with a family member/parent?
My dad is in a nursing home at just 71 years old. He was a stroke victim several years ago but declined rapidly after getting a herniated disc in his back. He can't even get out of bed now whatsoever, and hasn't in a year. They barely sit him up either. He's completely bed bound. I feel very sad for him being in a bed 24/7 for an entire year. 🙁But on the other hand, he watched me in severe psychological pain for YEARS, and mocked me and even laughed when I cried, after my mom bullied me. So I'm really torn when I go visit. My sister can't go as she is nearly bedbound herself with neuropathy in her feet. But she said she'd barely go if she could ...because of his behavior to us.
On the whole he's definitely better than how my mom treated me for years.. abhorrently. So I let things go because he can listen to me and not typically shout or criticize me. He can joke around occasionally too. But it's just a conflicting feeling going in. Because I'm showing a lot of care (bring food, drinks, email nurses about his care) to someone who turned away so many times from me. Even sided with a cruel sociopath sometimes (my mom). Have you ever felt this way?
On the whole he's definitely better than how my mom treated me for years.. abhorrently. So I let things go because he can listen to me and not typically shout or criticize me. He can joke around occasionally too. But it's just a conflicting feeling going in. Because I'm showing a lot of care (bring food, drinks, email nurses about his care) to someone who turned away so many times from me. Even sided with a cruel sociopath sometimes (my mom). Have you ever felt this way?
