Recently I've been filtering my words.

It's definitely something I've had to learn how to do. I don't think I realized the impact that my words had before. Maybe I just felt so worthless, why would anyone care what I said? Problems from growing up with careless drug addict absentee parents and practically raising myself I guess. Full of confusion and other negative feelings I couldn't identify at the time because I was not stable enough or educated enough, etc etc, to understand that it wasn't normal, maybe. Anyways. Ugh I've been such a mess of a person and just not even realizing it really because it's all I knew. I mean, I still am, who are we kidding. Anyway, I blab.