Would you contact friend yet, or no?

I have a good friend I have not seen in 32 years..I moved from our inner city neighborhood to an outskirt town and since then, we lost touch. She was my best friend ages 4-11. We did everything together!! She found me on FB several years ago and asked to meet up but I have such social anxiety I have not yet. I feel badly and have not told her the true reason.
I feel very vulnerable telling people of my disorder but I'm debating doing so with her. I heart her posts on FB but she never likes mine really. I think she believes I just don't WANT to meet and that's not it at all.

I bumped into her the other day at a store!! We now live closer and I knew it was her. I had a mask on and was pushing my sister in a wheelchair so not sure if she recognized me or not. I didn't say anything, and neither did she. Should I message her saying I saw her and maybe also tell about my anxiety? Or let it go until I am ready to meet up?

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ThePatientAnarchist · 61-69

Will you ever be more ready?
If not, I don't see what you have to lose, and I would definitely reach out.
My best and closest friend from high school and I have been in touch a few times over the years, but we don't seem to click anymore and have not resumed any closeness. On the other hand a friend from my first couple of years of elementary school recently rediscovered me (after like 55 years!!) and we are friends again. You never know.

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@ThePatientAnarchist I still have anxiety on meeting but, I'm working through it in therapy. I had a friend ditch me recently after years of friendship because I was living at home so could never invite her over into a volatile environment. I fear this friend could ditch me too...she's doing a lot better than me in life.
My anxiety is that I'm not enough even as a friend. But I never had anxiety years ago in my 20s , despite my living or financial situation I was a really good friend. I just need to get back to that mindset. That's really great you still click with your old friend!!