tbh i don't like weddings

my aunts wedding is coming up which i was already dreading because i just feel so out of place with my family and it really really works up my social anxiety. for a while i only went to family events with my mama till she passed suddenly. after i lost her my tia and i got pretty close as we realized how similiar we are. but she's not going to the wedding as she has another event going on at the same time. so i'm going to be truly, truly alone

i'm not even sure where i'm going to stay. maybe with my tia. i thought the event was in another country but my aunt said it actually got moved not far from my tias house. but if i can't stay with her then idk, i guess i'll get a hotel :x