I see myself physically appealing to a small amount of people, I'm not ugly I just don't fit into the media's description of beauty especially in the UK. That makes me more likely to be singled out, as"exotic" or "punished" depending on the beholders eyes.
I don't like these views of how people see me because what they see is merely skin deep. There is a soul with a lot of burden but equally a lot of love to give. I beat myself up daily for not being stronger and letting people get the better of me. But as defeatist as that may be I then try and pick myself up. Stupid ay. Usually it's one or the other, but maybe that's why I'm so "grounded" I have experienced nearly all the emotions on the spectrum but seem to reside on the lower mood side from the years of bashing. Talk to me and I'd be pretty honest like I am here today.
I was told by 2 exs that I have a high opinion of myself, because I expect nothing but the best from my partner. Cheeky ay!
I don't think so, I know what I can bring to the table, that's not currently financial, but the rest I have a lot to offer, I'm also willing to learn but most importantly try if I think it'd worth it. If I'm with someone that's got another woman, or not contributing to the emotional well-being for both of us that person is not worth trying with.
Even if they have lots of cash or good in bed... I deserve more. Very long but I hope that explains
