Isn’t it frustrating when you want to win but you know you can’t?

This is one of the reasons why I don't like competing with others instead, I always try to compete with myself. When you compete with others you can't really stop from comparing yourself with them and when you fare better, you end up being proud or sometimes even arrogant about it. If it's the other way, you feel bad about yourself and discourage. I just don't think that would be fair for me who also did my best.