I am still convinced I would have turned out to be an incredibly violent person if my grandfather didn't take me away.
Just one event, if that didn't happen, I would be on your news every other day.
I still have the impulses. It is hard not to when you are just trying to tune down your intensity and snippets of history repeat themselves everywhere else. And it gets so overwhelming that you start connecting small incompetencies to the larger picture.
People absolutely do not understand this level of knowing your own cruelty and having to face it before facing someone else's. And having to restraint it.
I can be all loving to the degree of self-sacrifice..but I can also be all rage to the degree that I would think biological weapons are absolutely fair game at this point.
Mind is a labyrinth.
I still have the impulses. It is hard not to when you are just trying to tune down your intensity and snippets of history repeat themselves everywhere else. And it gets so overwhelming that you start connecting small incompetencies to the larger picture.
People absolutely do not understand this level of knowing your own cruelty and having to face it before facing someone else's. And having to restraint it.
I can be all loving to the degree of self-sacrifice..but I can also be all rage to the degree that I would think biological weapons are absolutely fair game at this point.
Mind is a labyrinth.
