So I remember how awkward it was, sometimes nobody wanted to be with me

Cause they wanted to be with their friends. That made me feel sad, to feel that. Like I didn't fit with that group or anyone.

.... But also I felt glad and peaceful to be on my own, in my own space, specially if I didn't have to have them around me at all. Like you end up cherishing that space alone.

And finally grateful it was over.

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LookingForSomethingNew · 26-30, M

I was always hoping to have many friends when I was in school. I dreamed about hanging out with them, but never really had that chance. But then college came around and I started making many friends... but I disliked keeping up with everyone, so I went back to being alone again.

I think there are advantages to being alone, as well as being with others.

SW-User

@LookingForSomethingNew ah, i never saw the appeal of being popular, nope.

LookingForSomethingNew · 26-30, M

@SW-User I think most people would wish to be popular. I know I did. But I guess I changed my mind thereafter.

SW-User

@LookingForSomethingNew the reason that doesn't work for me is that I'm too much of a loner to enjoy popularity, to enjoy following others or being followed, I often need space, so yeah, while I may enjoy inspire others, I don't like "popularity" itself

LookingForSomethingNew · 26-30, M

@SW-User I see. It sounds like you realized that about yourself earlier on. That's good :) It took me a long time to figure out the same.