The dentist was absofuckinglutely traumatic today

Two teeth pulled. He gave me over ten shots of lidocaine, maybe 15. He was saying how hard I was too numb. Needed extra. Had to stop him from working a few times for more. He wasn't gentle. Or, I also think I just feel everything more intensely now then say in my 20s. Someone said it could have to do with having been poisoned in the past. (Ex poisoned me multiple times...his intent was a slow poisoning...a lot to that story). Ever since that, the littlest things can give me panic attacks. And I actually had one in the dentist chair today, and I just couldn't stop crying. I've had a lot of dental work done but never have I cried or felt that much pain. Was intense. Traumatic. Now I'm swollen up like a chipmunk and in way too much pain. I can feel all the little punctures from the injections and of course bone is hurting...also think I'm feeling a cold sore coming on on the side they were working on...ugh! I'm a mess. Staying in bed rest of evening and calling for help, lol.